re: scientific analysis of attraction

First off, I remained steady weight-wise this week. I'm happy with that because I was in ohio for a few days and was fairly certain sticking to the diet would be difficult considering I'd be going out with friends and have a mom who loves to cook. That being said, I didnt do TOO bad and despite the fact that I told myself that I wouldn't weigh in this week in order to avoid a disappointment, I did anyway, and while I didnt lose, I didnt gain during my trip, so I'm satisfied with that.

Now, Henning gets deep. Buckle up kids, this is a rarity.

I read Meeg's last post and it made me think. About myself and about something that happened during my ohio trip.

I'm a fairly confident person. I am confident about myself as a writer, a performer, a worker...I have confidence about every aspect of my life except one...my weight's impact on my appearance. Now, when I look at myself in the mirror I don't cringe...I think I'm a pretty decent looking guy...although on many, many occasions I have thought to myself "if I lost weight, I'd be hot."

I went to Roscoe's one night with my roommate and I was completely infatuated with the guy who carded us at the door. After we left, I commented to my roommate about him and he told me that I should have talked with him. I responded "he's out of my league," to which my roommate replied "why?"

Why.

An interesting question. Insecure Bri frequently assumes that nice looking, in-shape guys would never be interested, and while that may often be the case...it doesn't have to be. Confidence is a huge plus when it comes to attraction. If you are confident in yourself in every aspect others are drawn to you. Insecurity is very readable. It's kind of like how dogs sense fear. If you are insecure, people notice. It draws attention to the very thing one is insecure about. I remember when I was an auctioneer in Ohio...on more than one occasion people left their numbers for me with the cashier. Why? Because when I was selling, I lost all insecurity. I became so involved in what I was doing (something that I do with utmost confidence in my ability) that any insecurity about myself vanished.

When I was in ohio, i met up with some high school friends. One revealed to me that in high school she, and one of her friends, both had crushes on me but made a pact not to ask me out...but would both be ok with it if I had ever asked either one out. They were both people that I considered out of my league.

Interesting and enlightening. Perhaps the only thing that is keeping Henning single is his insecurity about himself.